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Nephew :)

Nephew :)

— 3 years ago
081609 < / 3

Never thought we’d see da end but it came a lil sooner than we ever expected …

Been up since 5 this mornin with u on my mind wonderin where i went wrong & what lead u to walkin out my life. I ain gone lie , i still think about us sometimes .. i miss what we had. I just knew u were slowly slippin away once we both realized dat my job demanded¬†most of my time … but i promised u a better life once i was out. U promised u would stick by my side no matter what , even thru all da bs we would encounter while i went thru da process. U couldnt deal …. I noticed it early on once u found ‘Bestfriend’ . So even when I’d try & make myself present in ya life , it got over shadowed by someone¬†new who was near u & givin u all da attention u been missin out on since i had been away.

For a long time debated on whether i should make dat last trip to miami.. Go & attempt to make shit right OR stay & have it end ? I knew dat if i went , shit would be awkward but i remember u sayin dat even if we were mad at each other u would still want me to be there. So i took a chance & flew out to miami after graduation…

From da jump , it was tension :/ Idk if it was cuz u sexually frustrated … but once we knocked dat out da way , i knew it wasnt da problem. U found more shit to be mad about when u took my phone… argued , blah Whatever :| swore up & down i was cheatin but steady blamin me when da reality of da situation was u had a lil side boo … But yeeaa , almost lost u til i explained wtf was goin on. Died down for a while but i still knew it bothered u…

After dat day tho , errything jus felt wrong about bein there. Met up wit u at da mall & u wouldnt even walk around wit me for w/e reason … Went to da beach & u wouldnt walk wit me cuz u wasnt up for it smh so when i got to da hotel room i jus decided not to even come back to ya house before i left… atleast until u called askin for me to come lay wit u cuz u missed me. I actually thought u meant dat til i got there -.-

Got to ya room.. laid next to u & u fell asleep . I’ll held u while u slept & u rubbed my arm for a lil bit…. Sadly , u ain even kno i was next to u til i jumped up when ya ma woke up. Felt like shit …. just low as fuck. Worst feelin i ever felt in my life bruh. I wouldnt wish dat on my worst enemy smh hated it. Sittin dere in ya closet knowin dat i was boutta leave in a hour or so. Got ya lil shitty kiss & hug den left… I was jus emotionally detached… Zoned df out from dat moment on til i got to da airport. Even textin u was awkward as fck. I knew we’d never come back from dat… & we didnt.

Week or so later u left me & got wit ‘Bestfriend’ . Made me promise to never fall in love wit another & i promised… & i actually planned on keepin it too until u started to love her. At dat point , stickin around waitin on u wasnt an option at all. Chose to move on & try to make better of my situation.

Honestly doe, Im stronger now …. Happier. Goin thru it tho opened my eyes to alot of things. Sometimes u have to learn da hard way so dat u wont keep makin da same mistake. For da first month of us bein apart , i thought i’d never get over but eventually i reminded myself dat i cant just give up on myself… i have a career now & a life to keep up wit. So i quickly got myself together & i since den things been lookin up for me. Helped me grow & become a better person , a better lover , a better friend…

— 3 years ago
obsexxed:

See you soon summer 2012.

obsexxed:

See you soon summer 2012.

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